I have found the original copy of an old, missing TF2 project that I've downloaded back in the days when the TF2 blog had different layout. I've clicked on the Soldier icon, then appeared previews & deleted scenes from ''Meet the Soldier''. I've downloaded the deleted scene, which was called ''suicide_soldier.avi''. The story is below.
"So do any of you remember those Valve first TF2 movie projects? The ones that were just put out on the Team Fortress 2 blog a few years ago? Well, I hear there is one that was unreleased to even the most avid fans of Source Engine games.
According to sources, it's nothing special. It's just a continuous loop (The colors are black & white, fault of a sudden error on coloring textures) of Soldier walking past a gm_construct wall that goes on for one minute before fading out. Unlike the Valve studio orchestra songs put in though, the music on this scene was not a song at all, just a constant banging on a piano as if the keys for a minute and a half before going to white noise for the remainder of the film.
It wasn't the psycho Soldier we've come to love either, Soldier wasn't warring, not even smiling of his psychopathic laugh from death of his enemies, just kind of walking as if you or I were walking, with a normal facial expression, but for some reason his head tilted side to side as he kept this dismal look.
Up until a year or two ago, everyone believed that after it cut to black and that was it. When Robin Walker was reviewing the weird continuous scene to be put in the complete Meet the Soldier, he decided it was too junk to be public, but wanted to have a digital copy due to the fact that it was a creation of John Cook. When he had a digitized version up on his computer to look at the file, he noticed something.
The scene was actually 5 minutes and 16 seconds long. This is what my source emailed to me, in full (he is a personal assistant of one of the higher executives at Valve, and acquaintance of Mr. Walker himself):
"After it cut to black, it stayed like that until the 2nd minute, before going back into Soldier walking. The sound was different this time. It was a murmur. It wasn't a language, but more like a gurgled cry. As the noise got more indistinguishable and loud over the next minute, the picture began to get weird. The sidewalk started to go in directions that seemed impossible based on the physics of Soldier walking. And the dismal face of Soldier was slowly curling into a smirk.
On the 3rd minute, the murmur turned into a bloodcurdling scream (the kind of scream painful to hear) and the picture was getting more obscure. Colors were happening that shouldn't have been possible at the time. Soldier's face began to dupe and smelt. His eyes was missing and his curled smile was pointing upward on the left side of his face.
The walls became very bright and the sidewalk was still impossibly navigating in warped directions, a few seeming inconcievable with what we, as humans, know about direction. Mr. Walker got disturbed and left the room, sending an employeer to finish the video and take notes of everything happening up until the last second, and afterward immediately store the scene to the movie into the vault. This distorted screaming lasted until 5 minutes and a few seconds in, and then it abruptly cuts to the Soldier's melted face without his eyes at the credits of the end of every video with what sounded like a broken music box playing in the background.
This happened for about 26 seconds, and whatever was in that remaining 26 seconds I haven't been able to get a sliver of information about. From a security guard working under me who was making rounds outside of that room, I was told that after the last frame, the employeer stumbled out of the room with pale skin saying "Real suffering is not known" 7 times before speedily taking the guards pistol and offing himself on the spot.
The thing I could get out of Robin Walker was that the last frame was a piece of Russian text that roughly said "I'll enter in your nightmares. Just wait". As far as I know, no one else has seen it, but there have been dozens of attempts at getting the file on rapidshare by employeers inside the Valve studios, all of whom have been promptly terminated of their jobs."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qdQeKi-4E6Q the video (warning: 2spoopy)